The Thick of It

So much has changed since I last wrote.

Yet, so much is very much the same. We spent many months waiting for the boys to be placed with us and things were repeatedly delayed because of Covid and a technicality for their biological fathers rights. We were told rights would likely be terminated in April this winter. April came and went. May came and went. Here we are most of the way through June and still we have not heard anything.

In January we got a call about placement and I almost always just automatically say no even though we have beds open for fear of getting the call about the boys. Something was different and I considered it. A huge part of me was saying no this is not an ideal time for a multitude of reasons.

But I said yes and our lives will never be the same again. We have shared our home with a beautiful, loving, energetic, easy going, vivacious and very happy child the last several months. I cannot wait to share this precious soul with you guys but I am not able to at this time. They add so much joy to our lives and laughter. I am so beyond grateful to be “momma” to this precious angel.

We are several months into the thick of it. We are navigating visitations. We are navigating running a business from home full time with a small child 3 days a week. We are navigating past trauma and fear. Advocating for this precious child entrusted in our care while being completely powerless to be able to make decisions for them. We are navigating the brokenness of the foster care system.

We are headed to court to learn what our next 6 months will look like. We could be headed to terminating rights and one step closer to adoption. Or we could be looking at another 6 months of visits. We came into this situation 100% supportive of the idea of our kiddo going back to their biological parents.

But I cannot imagine not having them in my life now. We are hoping to take our kiddo and more of their siblings if rights are terminated. Our kiddo is settled but if we are going to take their siblings then it would be less than ideal for things to be delayed another 6 months. We want everyone home as soon as possible so they can heal and adjust to the life they deserve.

Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers