Time continues to move along and my baby boy is still gone. I am not any more at peace with it and probably will never be. Because I do not understand why living in extreme poverty and not getting the attention you need is "best". Why further abuse happening for the sake of keeping the …
Rocks in the Door Handle
There are so many things that remind me of you. Like rocks in the door handle of your Menaw's car. You are in my waking thoughts and in my dreams at night. I welcome nightmares because sometimes you are in them and I get to see you and hold you. No matter how terrifying they …
The Christmas That Wasn’t
Our baby boy should have just climbed into bed to eagerly await Santa to shower him with the gifts that he deserves. He is such a well-behaved, well-mannered, and easy little boy. Being his mom is so easy because he is so chill. He should be clean after his bath in his Christmas pj's that …
“Keep Going Until Something Breaks”
The saga continues...We were blindsided by the findings in court. I was so blindsided that I fainted. Thankfully, Mark was there with me and was able to help. Things just are not working out how they need to. Things are going to have to get even worse before they are resolved. There is no guarantee …
Leveled
As a foster parent sometimes(who am I kidding it happens all the time) things come up that you are in no way prepared for emotionally. Its a sucker punch to the gut that leaves you doubled over. Today that came in the form of paperwork for a speech evaluation. What was your child's birth weight? …
No Body Wins
When dealing with DHS, foster care, and adoption (yes, even private adoptions as infants) no one wins. It is an impossible situation where everyone loses. Most specifically the kids lose the most. So even on the days that court may "go your way" it is not necessarily going the way that will do the least …
The Thick of It
So much has changed since I last wrote. Yet, so much is very much the same. We spent many months waiting for the boys to be placed with us and things were repeatedly delayed because of Covid and a technicality for their biological fathers rights. We were told rights would likely be terminated in April …
The Change Up
Life has been full of a lot of changes for our family. There is no way to say it but things have been very hard. We had to let our oldest baby girl go home. She was healthy and she was not acting any different than her normal self other than a runny nose. Until …
First Day of Kindergarten
Our first day of kindergarten looks different than we thought it would but not in the way you would think.
Still Waiting
I have not updated in a long time. We are still in the process of trying to get opened. We completed the training a few months ago and I thought I had turned in all the paperwork they needed. Unfortunately, I had not but I have since turned it in. Now we are just waiting …
Broken Open 